Shape changers
1.
Your mother, your father, were born to die I feel for that family, I sure do Collector of stamps, ancient histories, butterflies, he doesn’t hang on or let go
Marred from the start by the terror of clowns, memoirs, circuses, book-covers, makeup, summaries, sweet smelling soaps, prickly plants, and sweet, sweet cologne
He laughs, he always laughs Perspiration positively drips off of him The blandest food makes her sick More spice, more spice, she insists
He’d carefully analyze the forbidden Once you see it, you can’t unsee it Once you say it, it’s never unsaid Never enough time, time slips by
2.
Vitriolic soldiers, venal politicians impress themselves with the justice of their cause After victory they’ll throw the enemy corpses in the river We’ve seen it all before, they call it democracy
They’ll make themselves popular, yes they will They’ll celebrate the innocence of children in speeches They’ll make a show of help for the old in the public square, and in front of the television cameras they’ll hand out baskets of sweets
They’ll give themselves medals of honor, make speeches and get rich and for years their mediocrity will prevail like a series of scratches, one itch after another
Death is a terrible thing without pity Nature is essentially cruel The river runs over the innocent and the dead These ashes aren’t my mother, this dust isn’t me
3.
He would pursue the butterflies and knew you can hold their shapes in an instant, their vividness, their ancient colors, their spines, in a net and with pins They’re shape changers just like him
We escaped the Bolsheviks, then the Nazis, each by a matter of hours She never said essential things about the wind, changeability, her death, or my father
The Rabbi sits on the couch with the grief of the children next to him, with dignity, kindness, comfort, and sympathy, he knows this isn’t a time for his philosophy or empty explanations
Failure is the boundary Our shape changers make these masks, those freaks If we realize some good things alive, we seek for concordance, the invisible, the absurd, the bizarre, the unique
4.
He valued each person he talked to Don’t worry, this time you’re perfectly safe He would rather hurt inside than hurt you This life has too many hurts
The violence of fatigue, separation Failure by fatigue isn’t predictable precisely We only really know how long it will last when it breaks
He barely knew them and didn’t remember their names Concrete floors pound his feet all day He carries 50 lbs. bags of chemical alloys, inhales the foul air,
and will last until he breaks Here’s what’s true – he left faint marks in red clay and then changed shape
-July 29, 2012-