The Unwalled City
“Against other things it is possible to obtain security, but when it comes to death
we all live in an unwalled city”—Epicurus
1.
A train clacks through darkness past a derailed train in darkness, broken stops The coin in his head can only guess at its other side Ferocious and deranged means dangerous Most of them don’t imagine or love anything much This leaves them unmoved, inviolable and untouched
2.
When water freezes the chemical reactions needed to create life stop If only the actors would annihilate themselves The survivor lugs his corpse in her head and do what they’re told The harsh impulse may pass before it begins Let’s make it stop now, shall we?
3.
With his right ankle on his left leg just above his knee, he’d sit and watch TV If he saw something he liked he’d sometimes laugh and wiggle his left foot unconsciously False promises of rapture, exhausted by the effort night after loveless night— too old, blighted, lonely and afraid
4.
He found her intelligence prickly and abrasive— difficult to stay together, impossible to leave, universal in sympathy, they’re outcasts by nature a rancor that develops, naturally when two people live together— gaunt and haggard, more hawk-like than ever, this ceaseless process of work, creation, despair, invention, laughter and destruction
5.
She tries one key than another struts her air guitar as though I can’t see The seductress, the would be fuck-hole of Forest Hills isn’t fun anymore, and still can’t sing If I wake up beside you will life still be bleak? It was always bleak, even when I couldn’t see... Dressed in the French manner, she flaunts her tin jewelry
6.
She reduces her anguish by taking many lovers She knows just how the tricks are done Wrinkles start at the elbows and knees I once saw her rub her face with magic lotion and her wrinkles miraculously faded into blush This one has a remarkable military aptitude but his intelligence is less than robust
7.
Sometimes I don’t know which I hate more— to wear suits or the pricks who wear them He has a distinct horror of polite, feminine, diplomatic conversation She speaks of the past like it was now of people long gone as though they still live the exalted and pathetic, pleasure loving dead
-August 6, 2011-